I Just Can’t Help Myself… I’m Falling In Love With You (14)

                 -Is That Her Final Answer?-


Pan and Bra entered the kitchen and sat down at the table. Pan rested her head in her hands, thinking about her little trip down memory lane with her younger self. Although that would most definitely be the last time she go in that room. Someone shuffled into the kitchen and Pan looked to see who it was, it was her mother who seemed to look a little pale and distant. Pan arched an eyebrow and tilted her head to the side.

“Kassan are you alright?” Pan asked concerned. Videl looked at Pan and smiled.

“Hai Pan-chan.” She said softly. Pan nodded her head still uncertain but let it slide. Her mother walked back out the kitchen, probably off to find Gohan. Pan rested her head in her arms on the table. This day turned out to be dooms day for everyone. Pan sighed and didn’t notice the plate of sandwiches that Bra slid in front of her. Pan smiled and nodded. Bra nodded and turned to leave.

“I’m going to go to my room, if you need me or want to talk, don’t hesitate okay?” she said comfortingly. Pan looked back at her and smiled again.

“All right, Arigatou.” She said barely above a whisper. Bra heard her and headed out the kitchen. Pan turned around and started to munch on her snack. Upon eating her third one someone came into the kitchen and sat across from her. Pan glanced up quickly and saw her fiancé looking at her intently. Between a look of utter anger and one of complete heartbreak, she couldn’t tell. Pan looked back down and swallowed what she had in her mouth, but she couldn’t continue eating the rest so she placed it back on the plate.

“We need to talk Pan. I realized that’s something we stopped doing since we got here.” He said soft but harsh. Pan sat straight and folded her hands on the table. She looked up and into his eyes.

“What do you think we should talk about?” she asked in a hoarse whisper. Jason scowled.

“Everything. Everything about that Trunks… never once in your life did you tell me about him-…”he started but she cut him off.

“Cause there was nothing to say about him.” She said hurriedly. Jason sighed and looked down but then back up at her.

“It seems everything has to do with him lately. There is plenty to say about Trunks Pan, and you avoided telling me. Or give me some warning about how intimate the two of you were.” He said softly. Pan growled and shook her head.

“There was never anything between us! If you want to know so bad then fine,” she said in an angry hiss. “I had a crush on him when I was a teen. I told him how I felt and his reaction wasn’t exactly what I was going for. One thing lead to some things and I left.” She said concluding everything. Jason nodded knowing she was leaving a novel’s worth out but paid it no heed.

“Now at the picnic-…” he began to say but she got up and put her hands up meaning she was fed up and frustrated.

“I don’t want to talk about the picnic, I don’t want to ever talk about him. I don’t want to hear about it anymore.” She roared and stalked out of the kitchen. Jason got up and went after her.

“Pan… we are getting married tomorrow, what commitment will we be making if we can’t talk to each other?” he asked concerned. Pan whipped around and looked at him.

“I don’t know…what commitment would we be making?” she asked glaring at him. He looked taken aback by her statement but continued.

“Pan talk to me… we always talked, why are you choosing now to close up on me?” he asked her again. Pan didn’t say anything, she just turned around and walked to the door of their room and walked in. She heard him come in behind her and close the door. Pan was heading for the bathroom but he stopped her and turned her around. She was about to yell at him but he pressed his lips to hers in a frantic kiss. Pan hesitantly obliged to his wishes… this will take her mind off of everything once again. Pan opened her mouth to whimper but his tongue forced entry and tasted her. He broke the kiss and looked at her.

“I miss you Pan.” He said and kissed her again. His hands grabbed the hem of her shirt and brought it over her head. Throwing it to the floor. He then took off his shirt in a rush while still kissing her; his shirt joined hers on the floor. Wrapping his arms around her he brought her over to the bed. Turning around he pushed her gently on the bed with him on top of her gently. Pan wrapped her arms around his neck. Jason slid his hands down her body and started to work on undoing her pants. Once he loosened them he grabbed them and brought them down in a hurry with her underwear. Pan writhed under him but he kept her still. He began to take her bra off as he kissed her neck and collarbone.

“I missed you so much {kiss}. Ever since we got here {kiss} things just haven’t been the same.” He said reveling in the taste of her skin. Pan moaned as his hands caressed her body. Her deft hands untying his sweat pants and managing to slide them down with his boxers half way as he got rid of them the rest of the way. They were now both naked in each other’s arms and kissing every place in reach. Jason wasting no time delved deep within Pan as they both moaned their pleasure. His strokes were slow but intense.

“I love you Pan.” He whispered in her ear. She looked at him from the corner of her eyes but then closed them slowly. Her breathing raced and her heart pounded. His thrusts quickened and they cried out as they came together. Jason rolled off from on top of her so he wouldn’t hurt her. Pan’s breathing slowly returned to normal as she rolled into his embrace. Her head lay on his chest as she listened to his heartbeat. She listened intently for it to steady and slow down. When it did she listened for his breathing…it was slow and steady as well, he was sleeping. Pan detached herself from him and got out of bed fully naked and went into the bathroom but not before bringing with her a change of clothes. She got dressed quickly in sweat pants and a sports bra, which at the time she thought was a tank top. Pan didn’t bother putting her hair back up, she just let it loose. All she wanted to do right now was think. She didn’t tell Jason she loved him when she’s been telling everyone else that she did. When it came time to say it to him she didn’t. She didn’t even feel right during their bout of lovemaking. She felt wrong for doing it but felt pleased to get things off of her mind for the moment. Pan flew off out the window, not bothering to figure out where she wanted to go, but when she noticed she was flying over a body of water she knew where she was going. In fact it would be perfect maybe her tree even grew back.

~*~*~*~TRUNKS~*~*~*~

He sat in the tree ever since he left Pan at the house. He didn’t really want to leave but he didn’t want to stay and realize that he had lost. He lost her and it killed him inside. Trunks leaned his head against the bark and let his eyes gaze in the stars. His eyes widened as he spotted a small figure flying over the island and preparing to land not to far from his tree. Her mind was that clouded with thought she didn’t even think to realize anyone was here or give any thought to the matter. Pan landed in the clearing and looked to see if her tree had grown back. Not one inch. Sighing she just might sit and relax. Sitting on the ground she put her legs out in front of her slightly apart, raising them a little off the ground so she could lean her elbows on her knees. Pan sighed again and closed her eyes… how many time will she be in this situation of self-pity? Who knew? She hung her head down and closed her eyes. Tomorrow she was getting married and here she was feeling terrible about sleeping with her own fiancé.

“I have to be the stupidest person on the face of Kami’s green earth.” She said miserably.

“I beg to differ.” A deep voice sounded from behind her. Pan’s head snapped up and she was about to jump up to stand but two large and warm hands fell upon her shoulders keeping her there. Pan was surprised but then turned angry. She tried to shrug his hands off of her but he had a firm grip on her. Pan growled and sat back, her body tensed.

“Can’t take a hint… I know I made it loud and clear at the picnic.” She said grouchily. Trunks smirked. This was far from over. Pan would be his no matter how long it took for him to do it. Pan looked straight into nothingness, she couldn’t concentrate on anything with Trunks behind her. Small creatures ran across and she didn’t even follow to see what it was, waves crashed to her east and she didn’t even look to see its glory, it didn’t look like she cared at all except for the fact that the man that caused her dozens of problems was behind her. In fact at that very moment, one million saiyan space pods could come crashing down around them and one huge dimensional portal open up in front of her eyes and throw out demons from thousands of years ago and she probably wouldn’t even blink.

“Pan-chan… why do you continue to fight me?” he asked knowing she was going to snap at him. Pan growled again.

“You are a dirty liar… you said ‘good-bye’ the last time and it seemed that would be the last of these encounters. Why must you bother me so?” she asked looking to where the wave had crashed. Going swimming would sure be much more nicer… she used to skinny dip over in that ocean. Trunks chuckled and she was forced to realize just where she was at and her situation.

“I think I asked the question first, but I’m not trying to bother you,” his tone went from playful to serious. “We need to talk Pan-chan.” He said softly.

“There is nothing to talk about.” She said angered. How is it everyone wanted to talk all of a sudden. Including him, when she needed to talk to him he took off. Now… he’s all over her like Goku on food.

“There is plenty to talk about Pan-chan. Fact of the matter is… your lying to everyone including yourself. I wish you would just listen.” He said softly. He kissed her shoulder and rested his chin there. Looking at her intently. Pan scowled and looked at him, she stared into his eyes intensely. Slowly her expression softened and she just sighed out of exhaustion. ‘Pan don’t you dare submit to him… you are stronger than him. You have someone wonderful waiting for you… don’t let him walk in take it away then walk out. Don’t let it happen… don’t let him feel love from you’ her subconscious mind debated with her. ‘How is he going to feel love from me when it’s not supposed to be there in the first place?’ her rational self questioned. Her inner mind debate wasn’t going in her subconscious minds’ favor. Pan broke her gaze and stared back out into the emptiness.

“You walked out on me Trunks. I told you something that I kept inside of me way too long and I told you. I thought that you would see how much love I… had… for you then and you would return it. But I was wrong and you rejected me in the worst of ways.” She said looking into his eyes again. She saw guilt and sadness there but she refused to see it, as he was sorry.

“Then when you came back to me, I thought you made a mistake and wanted me then. I thought you wanted me to be with you and you with me. I felt loved when you were with me for those brief moment but then you walked out again and left me again.” She said her voice getting softer and softer. She hung her head down willing herself not to break. “How was I supposed to react, how was I to face you again? I couldn’t submit myself to more humiliation then what already happened. So it was my turn to walk out whether you cared or not.” She finished looking up into the sky. Trunks embrace tightened warmly, she didn’t tense or object, just let it happen. She looked at him in his eyes. Her eyes glossed over but no tears were shed.

“It’s your turn Trunks… talk.” Softly she demanded.

“I can’t take back the pain I inflicted on you Pan… and I never, ever wanted to cause you any from the start. But when you told me how you felt, I was more in shock then what you thought. I wasn’t revolted by it or upset about it, but I didn’t know how to act on it because I… at the time I was so upset with myself that I had these different feelings for someone younger than myself, which was you, and I felt that she… you were something that I shouldn’t consider as that. The more I tried to rule out my feelings the worst things got, but I was unsure how to go about feeling for a 16 year old I just didn’t really expect to wonder what the 16 year old felt for me. Pan… I was scared out of my wits end about what a relationship between us then could lead to. I just didn’t know what to do period… and when it did come time to act upon those feelings I literally screwed up.” He said softly confessing to her his truth. Pan looked at him and nodded.

“No argument here… your no Romeo that’s for sure.” She said smiling to herself. ‘I smiled… what does that look like to him, and open invitation saying… ‘Okay you won take me I’m yours’…. Pan you are a true moron’ she thought. Trunks smiled with her but then became serious. He shifted causing her to face him. He had an expression meaning the next words out of his mouth might not be ones she would so easily comply.

“Pan… like I said earlier, I want to make amends but not really. What I mean is… I would like to build a relationship with you.” He said staring into her eyes intently. Pan shook her head ‘no’. The calm situation and almost happy moment had been shattered. She couldn’t let it happen no matter how much she loved him. ‘Do I really?’ she questioned. Trunks were about to say something else but she turned around and was about to get up only to be pulled down.

“Please listen to me.” He pleaded moving around to face her. Pan scowled and turned her head away from his gaze.

“I already did… and you listened to me and I’m happy about that Trunks, but that’s all there’s going to be.” She said slightly confused. Trunks scowled. He grabbed the back of both her knees with both hands and started to bring her to him, much closer. Pan snapped her head to look at what he was doing and tried to get his hand off of her. She needed two to pry off one hand then as soon as she worked the other he put the hand she took off back on. Trunks smirked, he was now in-between her and leaning over her as she kept on taking his hands off of her. She got upset.

“Damnit Trunks this isn’t funn-…” she was cut off as his lips pressed against hers. Pan’s eyes widened and she now tried to push him away, but her feeble and halfhearted attempts only pushed him to her deeper. He grabbed her wrists and held them in front of her chest. Getting closer to her he started to lean her down on the ground. Deepening the kiss as he did so, Pan was at this time lost within herself and his kiss. It was either by instinct or passion that her legs wound around his waist. He let her arms go and instantly they caressed whatever was in reach. His hands came to life as they glided over her body. He pressed his face into the crook of the neck and took a deep breath of her scent. Pan’s eyes widened… her scent wasn’t going to be the only one he registered. His eyes arched and his guard was down, Pan succeeded in pushing him off of her all the way and scampered up in a un warrior like manner. Quickly she turned the other way and began walking; she heard his footsteps after her, her pace increased. He called out to her and when she neared the woods she broke out into a run. ‘Pan why are you running away from him? Cause I’m scared shitless that’s why!’ she questioned and answered herself. She turned sharply to a tree and hid behind it. She crouched down and leaned against the bark, thinking what she was doing.

‘Why the hell should I feel guilty for him noticing the scent of my fiancé on my body? I love Jason… so we expressed that love for each other. I gave my body to my fiancé willingly, when does that become something to be ashamed of? But for a minute I didn’t remember who Jason was. Why was I willing to give myself to Trunks after I nearly had a heart attack for yelling and screaming like a banshee at him earlier? I remember when all the contact I wanted between him and me was my fist to his face… now… I’m not even sure. Well I’m not a friggin slut! I just had se- made love to Jason…. Why would I make lo- have sex with Trunks? My head hurts… I don’t want to think anymore. What time is it?” she thought while looking at her watch. ‘Already 1:00… gee golly wiz that sure is late.’ She thought cynically. Pan leaned further into the tree… she was starting to feel ashamed for having such feelings for Trunks that shouldn’t be there.

“I shouldn’t be having these damn problems. I’m supposed to be at Cap Corp with Bulma Bra and Jason having a nice time. I came here in the first place so my family could meet Jason. I’m supposed to be getting married tomorrow. I’m supposed to be planning my honeymoon in Tahiti! I’m not supposed to be worried about my infidelity with my child hood crush.” She whined falling into sitting position down against her tree and putting her head in her hands. Pan moved her hands to her temples and started to rub in a circular motion. She was acquiring a bad headache.

‘Remember… your past… your love… your true feelings… he’s your pain… but your pleasure… make it right… make him yours’ a small voice echoed around her. Pan clenched her eyes closed and growled.

“You don’t understand… I can’t.” she said into nothing.

“Yes you can.” He said from behind her, or was he? Pan whipped around to look behind the tree… nothing. She looked to the other side and saw nothing there as well. She looked from her left and her right… nothing. ‘My imagination is playing dirty tricks’ she thought not amused. Turning back to face the front she saw a pair of black sweat pants. She scowled. ‘So is life.’ She thought getting up. She looked him in the eye… if he was going to scold her for sleeping with Jason, oh! Was he going to get an earful of every curse in every language she could think of.

“Sorry to postpone your ‘wonderful life’ from proceeding, but I know what I feel, and I mean what I say, and I know what I want… which is you.” He said softly and deeply.

“And I know what I want… I have a life to live Trunks… and yes you are putting a damp in it.” She said annoyed. Trunks scowled… he grabbed her face quickly yet gently. Pan was taken by surprised and couldn’t find herself to overcome it. He pushed her against the tree slowly. He kissed her hard and deep, pulling back he looked into her eyes intensely. He leaned into her again but started to kiss her neck and ear.

“Tell me who you truly want.” He whispered softly. Pan opened her mouth to speak but couldn’t form the words. ‘Trunks… why are you doing this to me you dumb fool? How can you make me decided like this you idiot? Why do I feel?’ she thought frantically. Pan tried to talk again but still couldn’t answer his question. ‘I want….’

“Jason ‘Trunks’.” She said one name but thought another. Trunks eyes slid closed. Never in his wildest dreams did he ever imagine he would feel this much pain. So much ache and disappointment, he didn’t think a feeling like this existed let alone cause so much distress. His hand slid down from her face to her chin then his contact was gone. Pan looked at him and could see and… feel his hurting. She wanted to take it all back and say she loved him… take everything back and say she cared for him still. She knew it was too late now. He stepped back from her allowing her ‘personal’ space.

“Then I wish you well Pan. I’m sorry I caused us both so much grief.” He whispered before walking away. Pan looked at his retreating figure. Her mouth made moves and she could have sworn her lips moved to words but no audible sound came out. She fell back against the tree and looked down… ‘What have I done?’ she questioned looking back up. He was gone.

~*~*~*~CAPSULE CORP~*~*~*~

Jason walked down the hall to her room. He would find out and he would find out now. He would get his answers, know why it was so hard for his fiancé to love him like she used too. He woke up and found her gone… in fact he had a feeling that she would leave. If he knew she had a history of just up and go running he would have considered what he was getting into. He didn’t want to have to go looking for her whenever they had fights. It was almost hard to find the door in the darkness of the hallway but he did and knocked on it loudly. He heard slight shuffling sounds and mumbling… she was coming to the door now.

Bra walked to the door wondering who the hell was bothering her at almost two in the morning. It was probably Trunks about to drill her head with what he was feeling… and like a sister and one who really does care she would listen. Bra yawned and opened the door; she yawned again and looked to see if her suspicions were right. Her sleep filled eyes were suddenly awakened as she noticed just who was knocking on her door and wearing only boxers. ‘Uh oh… this has got to be a bad sign’ she thought motioning for him to come in. He stood in the center of her room and she silently closed her door. She wished she put on her robe, wearing a large t-shirt only wasn’t really appropriate. Bra looked back to him and decided that the light from outside was good enough… he wouldn’t see that much of her. Jason looked at her… in the dark she could see his eyes, they were dark and scared, lost and worried. He walked up to her and hugged her tightly. Bra’s eyes widened and she could do nothing but pat his back here and there. ‘Kami please let no one walk in… this must not look right’ she thought panicky. He pulled back and sat down on her chair. She just stood there… and waited to listen.

“I’m sorry if I alarmed you… I know what you are probably thinking. I didn’t mean any harm.” He said softly. Bra nodded her head but considering he wasn’t looking up at her she mumbled an ‘okay’. ‘Couldn’t he have gone to… guess not.’ She thought thinking who else he could have gone to, not that she was turning him away but finding him in her room half naked wasn’t something one would take lightly, but why her? He looked up at her.

“I don’t know what to do here… I feel I am in a no end situation. She left… right after… something… and it was like she was glad to leave. She doesn’t want to talk to me anymore… and I checked your brother’s room out of suspicion and he’s still not there. She probably went to him. I’m losing her everyday… I came to you cause you are her best friend. What can I do to win Pan back?” he asked pleading. Bra felt a tad bit pity for him, but she would give him advice anyway.

“Jason… this isn’t a game. You can’t win Pan back… you have to love her back and she has to love you. She said she does and she shows you she does… right now she’s under some heavy stress, the wedding for one. My brother is another one and pleasing you is all she’s thinking about during these times. You can’t pressure Pan into answering some questions because your not sure… you have to understand that.” She said as nice as she could. He nodded and looked at her again.

“But you and her uncle don’t think I am right for Pan. You said yourselves yesterday… no one thinks I am any good for her. But I love her and I know I am good for her… she chose me and she loves me and I love her. But Trunks… is trying to take her away from me. I tried to be as understanding as I could, but when I find out he starts touching her in ways in which only I’m supposed to it really ticks me off. Just please… talk to her… if she comes back that is. Tell her that I love her more than anything and never would I want to hurt her or cause her more pain than she already has to deal with.” He said getting up slowly. He walked passed Bra brushing her shoulder accidentally. Between opening, walking out and closing the door she didn’t remember when she sat down on her bed again. Bra lay back down and tried to go back to sleep… everyone had a big day tomorrow and here they are running around at two and three o clock in the morning. She needed her beauty rest; tomorrow she was best woman and had to look dazzling. When her brother came in her room nearly breaking the window, she knew sleep was far back ruled out. She bolted up in bed and looked at him… he shut the window and again he nearly broke it. She cringed at the shutting sound that it made. He walked over to her bed and plopped down with his entire weight making her side bounce. She just stared at him and again, she could see in his eyes that he was distraught and pained. She opened her arms to him and he accepted hesitantly. He squeezed her tightly, grimacing but not complaining she hugged him back.

“It was my last chance and she refused me… she chose him for real Bra. What am I going to do?” he asked his voice full of uncertainty. Bra looked worried.

“I don’t know… what happened?” she asked softly.

“I was thinking over at an island, Pan landed on it and was thinking too I guess. I went up behind her and she wanted to leave but silently and nicely I asked her to stay. We had a half way decent conversation; she was comfortable leaning on me and even made a joke. It wasn’t until I mentioned I wanted her with me that the situation did a 180 turn on me for the worse. It was then that I asked her for the last time… who was it going to be and she chose him. I am such an idiot!” he growled squeezing her more tightly. Bra squeaked but still did not complain. She forced herself to speak.

“You are not an idiot Trunks. I cannot speak for Pan, or anyone else for that matter, but in my opinion all of you are going through hell. I wish I can do something Trunks, but unfortunately I can’t. Everything will clear up and everyone will come to their senses soon enough. It just won’t be when we want it too.” She said the best she could. Trunks nodded his head. He could never remember him ever going to Bra for help. He on the other hand could remember each and every time he stumbled on to her crying, or she came to him in the middle of the night asking for help and he would just do what she was doing to him.

“Trunks… you are upset, wake up tousan so you two can go into the gravity room. You have to release this… stress.” She said on the verge of wheezing. Trunks pulled back from her and with his saiyan eyes could see she was nearing blue. He nodded and ruffled her hair much to her distress. Trunks walked out and down the hall to his parents’ room, he hoped they weren’t busy.
Bra fell back down into her pillow. Tiredness starting to fill her up again, but a slight knock on the window ruined it for her. Bra got up slowly and stumbled over to the window. She looked out to see Pan hovering at her level with a look of sheer anguish. Bra opened the window and ushered Pan in, she closed the window quickly and wasn’t even allowed to sit back down before Pan hugged her tightly.

“I don’t know what I did? I don’t know what to do? I’m scared Bra… I really am.” Pan whispered hoarsely. Bra hugged her friend and shushed her. She led her over to the bed and sat down still holding Pan. ‘I know why this feels familiar’ she thought smiling to herself.

“What happened?” she asked nicely. Pan looked up to her.

“I did something terrible… I don’t know what to do. I’m getting married tomorrow and here I am grieving over my crush. Why was I ‘blessed’ with so much stupidity?” she questioned herself angrily leaning back into her embrace. Bra patted her back and pulled her up to face her again.

“Kami ‘blessed’ us all with stupidity… I know I had my share. It’s just that we have to overcome it with our common sense. Now I am not going to say anything else but this… tomorrow you will know for sure where your life is leading you and you will know whether your stupidity was common sense in disguise.” She said smiling. Pan looked at her weird but dismissed it. She nodded her head and got up slowly.

“Thanks Bra… you can get your sleep now. Especially if you’re going to be standing next to me tomorrow, you need to look your best.” She said smiling. Bra stuck her tongue out at her as she left. Pan closed the door and walked back to her room. Passing a window she looked out at Vegeta’s gravity room. The light was on and she could feel two ki’s going at it violently. Shaking her head she walked down the steps and was heading to her room. Pan opened the door silently and tip toed in closing it, turning around she was face to face with a very livid face. Pan gulped and stepped back against the door.

“Why do you keep leaving?” he asked hoarsely. Pan bit her lip and looked down. She looked back up and stepped to him.

“I just needed to think Jason… I’m not leaving you… I never want to.” She said softly. He bowed his head and nodded. Pan stepped up to him again and hugged him as much as he could handle. She felt his arms go around her and hug her as well.

“Why would you leave afterwards…. I don’t understand Pan. What is it that keeps you away now?” he asked struggling to keep his tears away. ‘Trunks’ she thought sadly. Pan shook her head nothing and stepped away.

“We have a big day tomorrow… we need our sleep.” She said smiling as she let her finger run down his chest. He nodded and put his arm around her waist as if he was escorting her to the bed. She smiled and sat down on the bed, she was about to take her shoes off but he did for her. She got further into the bed and laid down waiting for him to come on his side. He did and instantly wrapped her up tightly in his arms.

“I won’t leave you Jason.” She said snuggling closer than she already was. He put his nose in her hair.

“I know… I never want you to.” He said before falling asleep. Pan sighed and went to sleep as well. ‘I’ll try’ was the last of her thoughts.

~*~*~*~NEXT DAY = BIG WEDDING DAY~*~*~*~

Pan was sleeping on her stomach when a shrill sound kept ringing in her ear. Picking her head up to look for the device she spotted the phone on the night table ringing away determined to keep her awake. Pan grumbled and picked it up mumbling a guttural ‘hi’.

“Well hello to you too miss I’m-getting-married-today-but-I-don’t-care-since-I-am-still-trying-to-sleep.” Bra said sarcastically. Pan grumbled again and sighed… she rolled over to her back and noticed Jason was gone.

“Oh if you’re wondering where your fiancé soon to be husband went, your father, Kulilin, Goten, Goku and the rest of the guys stole him away to get ready. Well except my father that is.” She said as matter of fact. Pan nodded.

“Bra where the hell are you if you’re phoning me?” she asked still tired.

“I’m over at the boutique where you are going to get the makeover of a lifetime for your special day. Mom and the others are going to bring you here to get ready, we all are. Besides the church is not to far from here so it’s perfect. Now I’m just warning you now cause my mother will be busting in there any minute now and drag you out… so get yourself together now.” She said quickly. Pan nodded and got out of bed. She knew how bouncy they all can get when a party is involved, especially Bulma.

“All right Bra… see you there.” She said before hanging up.

“All right.” She said and hung up as well. Pan went into the bathroom and got herself together quickly after her shower. Tying her hair in a pigtail she slipped on some jean shorts and a button down sleeveless shirt. Lacing her Skippy’s she got up just in time to see almost all the girls break in to her room. Bulma, Chichi and Videl smiled mischievously and Pan gulped. Marron stood by waiting smiling too. Lunch and 18 were waiting in the car as they saw all three women cling to Pan and walk her out the house as if she was a prisoner. They all got into the car and were off to meet Bra and get themselves together as well.

“Are you ready honey… this is your big day.” Videl said softly. Pan nodded her head slowly. As if she was still thinking about it.

“We are all so proud of you Pan-chan. You will be the most wonderful and glamorous bride there is going to be today.” Bulma said smiling. Pan smiled as well… knowing how Bulma loved to plan parties and weddings. Especially since she didn’t get to plan hers herself. But knowing Bulma… she was going to have her wedding even if it killed her. The car ride went by quickly and soon they ended up in front of the boutique where Bra was standing. Pan whistled looking out the window at the large building. ‘Wow… this must be expensive’ she thought getting out. They all walked in and the inside was more luxurious then the outside.

“This place is beautiful.” Pan whispered to Marron. Marron smiled and leaned over to Pan.

“Yea I know… to think this might be the last time I get to come here so I am going to enjoy as much as my pampering as possible.” She said laughing. Pan laughed with her and nodded. They all walked further and up the escalator until a woman came running to Bulma and giving her a hug.

“Cloey it’s so good to see you again. Thanks again for taking us last minute.” Bulma said smiling. The woman named Cloey waved her hand in dismissal.

“No problem at all… how could I turn down my childhood friend.” She said nicely. They walked further into the lavished room and saw where they will be getting themselves dressed. One section had dressing rooms and mirrors. The other was a small section for nails, and the other was hair. Pan walked over to the tall window and looked out at the view. Bulma walked behind her and put her hand on her shoulder.

“You see that tall building over there, the one with the towers?” She asked softly. Pan looked and nodded yes.

“Lovely building… it’s nicely decorated. Lily’s and Tulip’s covering the doors and stair rails… my favorite.” She said slowly. Pan looked to Bulma and smiled giving her a hug.

“Thank you Bulma-san. You are way too nice for your own good.” She said pulling back. Bulma chuckled and grabbed her chin gently.

“Not when it comes to family.” She said softly. She wrapped her arm around her shoulder and walked her back to where the set up was.

“Come on… its time to dazzle you up.” She said smiling. Pan smiled as well noticing everyone else was already getting their hair or nails done. Bra and Marron were getting a facial next door.

“Which one first?” she asked her nicely. Pan crossed her arms and looked around.

“I think I will get my hair done then my nails.” She said as matter of fact. Bulma nodded and walked her over to where Chichi and 18 were.

“Take good care of our Bride Toni… nothing but the best.” She said walking back to get her nails done with Videl and Lunch. Pan hopped up in the chair and looked into the mirror. The last time she looked at one it wasn’t what she would call a memorable experience. ‘This is it… part one of my marriage day’ she thought to herself. She could feel the butterflies flutter in her stomach already. Pan took a deep breath and let Toni work her hair.

~*~*~*~CHURCH~*~*~*~

“So what time do we get ready?” Jason asked watching as everything was set for his wedding. Goten shrugged.

“Bulma said that we should be ready before they get here… and they are down the block from us getting ready themselves so how about… noon.” He stated. Jason nodded and went to one of the rooms in the church. He would lounge around before his big day. He looked to a clock and sighed when he saw it was only 9:30. ‘Can’t take much of a nap’ he thought looking out the window to where is fiancé was. ‘Come back to me Pan… meet me at the alter’ he whispered in his mind.

~*~*~*~ONE HOUR LATER~*~*~*~

“Come on Pan you have to wear the shoes.” Bra debated with her.

“I mean you don’t expect to walk down the alter bare foot, or worse, in sneakers.” Marron added holding the shoes up for her to get.

“And why not… the dress is long enough… who’s going to see, or notice?” she questioned standing up while the tailors fit the dress to her body snugly. Bra and Marron sighed shaking their heads.

“Well at least we got her into the dress.” Bra said exasperated. Marron chuckled.

“That’s true.” She agreed.

“The shoes would be better Pan… put them on and as soon as the wedding is over you can take them off.” Videl said trying to coax her to wear them. Pan sighed and began to whine to herself.

“Oh alright…. Fine!” she said frustrated. All women smiled and sighed satisfied. The ladies finished with her and helped her step down. Pan came out from behind the screen and walked out to where the others were. Their eyes brightened at the sight of her and Videl and Chichi gasped.

“My baby is so beautiful.” She whispered about to cry. Pan smiled and wagged her finger at her mother.

“No crying okay… neither any one of you, if you all get emotional I know I will end up whining too so keep it in till my back is turned.” She said smiling. Pan was wearing a strapless pure silk white dress that fit her curves wonderfully. Showed everything that a woman is supposed to have. The front reached down to her feet and the back was longer… it followed a few inches behind her. It was simple but elegant… starting from the center of the bosom; white sequin beads took shape of a flower and it’s stem or vine wrapped all around the dress till it was at the foot of the dress. The same arm sheaths in silk had the same design, A thin piece wrapped around each of her middle fingers and went up little pass her elbow. Her hair was in a curly French twist with glittered clips holding it up. Two strands curl down framing her face. Pan smiled and twirled around in it once.

“What do you think?” she asked timidly.

“Absolutely marvelous.” Chichi said admiring her granddaughter. Bulma nodded. Lunch and 18 walked up to her and smiled giving her a kiss on the cheek.

“You look great Pan… we are going to go to the church and make sure the guys are ready for us okay.” Lunch said softly. 18 nodded her head to Pan and Pan did the same.

“Alright… now the gifts.” Bulma said smiling. Chichi nodded and took out a velvet box from her bag and handed it to Pan. Pan smiled and opened it. It was a diamond choker that glittered brighter than the sun. In the middle was the largest diamond but something was inside, it looked like an emblem.

“It says ‘Power to her name… love from her to me, this is for my daughter, that I leave my legacy’.” Chichi said softly. Pan grinned and took it out of the box and fingered it carefully.

“It’s beautiful.” She said stunned by its beauty. Chichi took it from her and walked behind her to put it on. Pan smiled again speechless. She looked into the mirror and it was perfect. She kissed Chichi on the cheek.

“It belonged to your great grandmother. I hope you like it…it belongs to you now. By the way… something old.” She said smiling. Pan smiled knowing where this was going. Bra and Marron giggled and handed her another royal blue velvet box.

“Something new.” They said in unison. Pan opened it and smiled. She took the gold bracelet out and looked at what was inscribed. ‘Pan Bra Marron… Friends till the end’ She looked at them and hugged them both.

“Thanks you guys… you are so good to me.” She said smiling. They laughed and nodded.

“Here you go honey… something borrowed.” She said softly kissing her daughter on the cheek. Pan smiled and opened it. It was a pair of diamond earrings that could of matched the choker perfectly. Pan kissed her mother back and quickly put them on. They were beautiful. She was beginning to shine. Bulma walked up to her from behind and looked at her in the mirror.

“Thanks again Bulma-san.” She said almost dazed from everything. Bulma waved her hand dismissing it and turned her around gently. She took a small pendant from her pocket and pinned it to the center of Pan’s dress. It was a light blue crystalline flower.

“Something blue.” She whispered and smiled. Pan just couldn’t stop smiling… she was… overwhelmed. She turned to everyone.

“Thank you…all of you. I love you all so much.” She said grinning from ear to ear. They all nodded.

“Now… before I do cry… where are those shoes. The quicker I put them on the faster I can take those suckers off.” Pan said laughing. Everyone chuckled along.

~*~*~*~CHURCH~*~*~*~

“I know what I am doing woman…don’t bother me.” Vegeta grumbled to Lunch who was trying to fix his tie. He hated all this dress up crap but how could he deny the woman… especially after she threatened his impending doom without his toy and ‘other’ things. He grumbled again to himself cursing everything. Goku was about to laugh but decided against it.

“Hello guys… the ladies have arrived.” Bra said upon their entry. The guys looked up in unison just in time to see their partners walk in stunningly beautiful. They all smiled at each other. Goten went over to Bra immediately and gave her a kiss on the lips.

“You look gorgeous.” He whispered in her ear. She smiled. Bra was wearing a royal blue silk long dress with spaghetti straps. It had black flowers embedded on it and she wore her hair up in a bun with small curls coming out.

“You look quite delicious yourself.” She said smiling mischievously.

Goku and Chichi embraced and he quickly complimented her. She was wearing a nice black dress that hugged her curves and came to about her knee. Her hair was also tied up in a twist. Videl was wearing a red satin two-piece skirt and top, it had silver designs written in their language. The top had one button up at the neck and hugged her curves nicely as well. The skirt went down a little over her knee but two slits up to her mid thigh made up for it. Her hair was tied up in a messy do with two red with silver specked sticks holding it together. Gohan took her in his arms and kissed her cheek.

“It’s amazing how you get more and more beautiful every time I see you.” He said into her ear. Videl giggled.

“Same with you mister.” She said sweetly. Bulma walked over to her husband who was still trying to fix the bow tie. She walked in front of him and swatted his hands away and took over. He looked at her angrily but his eyes scoped the length of her body. She wore a short satin emerald strapless dress, with a long matching jacket slightly flared down to her ankle and one button at the waist. She had green emerald necklace with matching earrings and her hair pinned up with emerald clips with curls coming out here and there.

“Aren’t you glad you came now… to see such a stunning dress on me?” she asked slyly. Vegeta hmmph’ed and smirked as she finished with his tie.

“I’ll be glad when it’s laying on the floor.” He said wickedly. Bulma smiled and smirked as she walked away.

“We’ll see.” She said leaving him behind. Vegeta looked after her walking back to the group of woman and smirked again. Looking himself over in the mirror he mumbled to himself.

“Yes woman we will see.”

~*~*~*~PAN~*~*~*~

Pan sat down in a brightly lit room that must be one of the wedding prep places or something. She sat down at the vanity table and stared at her self in the mirror.

“So we meet again.” She whispered to her reflection. Pan looked down at the bouquet in her hands and sniffed them. They were real flowers… all her favorites. She fingered the veil that crowned her head… it was not yet time to cover her face with it. She then looked down at her hand with her engagement ring…it was beautiful, A real sight to see. ‘And I thought I would never be in this situation’ she mused with herself. Pan took a deep breath and stood up and walked over to the window. She looked over the view and smiled. Today was her day… it was finally happening. ‘Then why do you still feel guilty’ she questioned. Pan’s smile dropped and she turned back around. A knock at the door sounded and she picked up the front of her dress and ran over there. She had yet to put on her shoes.

“Who is it?” she questioned putting her ear to the door.

“It’s me Pan… it’s Showtime!” Bra said cheerily. Pan gasped and opened the door wide.

“Already!” she exclaimed wondering when the time flew by so fast. Bra shook her head and handed her the shoes.

“They go on now… come on all the guests are here and they are all seated. Everyone else is in place now as soon as you put these on I got to jet to my place.” She said as matter of fact. Pan nodded and took the shoes out of her hand shakily. Bra took hold of her wrists and looked her in the eye.

“I love you Pan, you’re my best friend. I wish you the ultimate best.” She said softly. Pan smiled and nodded. Bra nodded her head and took off the down the hall. Pan put the shoes on and took deep breaths. She paced back and forth getting used to the shoes so she won’t fall flat on her face. ‘This is it… part two of my marriage’ she thought nervously. Taking the final breath she walked out the door with her bouquet in hand. She saw her maidens and her maiden of honor, Marron. Marron smiled and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek before shooing her to the back of the line.

The flower girl was the first to walk out and she was the most darling thing alive. She smiled brightly and littered the aisle happily with flowers from her basket. Afterwards she quickly ran to her mother asking if she did good, her mother nodded a yes and gave her a kiss then sent her to stand next to the best woman. Bra smiled down at her and she smiled back up.
It was then time for the maidens and their partner to come down. First was Marron who came down the aisle with Uub smiling till kingdom come. Next was 18 walking down with Kulilin, then Lunch with Tien. They all walked down the aisle taking the proper steps and smiling at everyone. After they took their spots by the right person the wedding music that signaled for the bride sounded through the chapel and everyone looked back to see her walk down.

Pan was at the door and her arm was linked to her father’s. He looked down at her and smiled that father proud smile. She smiled back up at him knowing he could see her. She took the last breath and they both stepped out onto the royal red carpet in unison. All their eyes were on them… she watched as her mother and grandmother cried in each other’s shoulders, and Goku snap pictures like crazy. Vegeta was standing in that same mighty pose and Bulma had her hands clasped together smiling at her brightly. She looked at her friends Bra and Marron… they smiled at her and waved on the down low. She smiled and did the same. She looked to her uncle and he nodded his head at her. She did as well. She was getting close… utterly and severely close to the alter. Pan finally took a peek at Jason…she looked to his eyes and saw so much love for her there she almost couldn’t stand it. He wanted her so badly to be his. ‘You do to don’t you?’ she questioned fearfully. They finally stepped up onto the alter and everyone say down.

“Who is giving this woman away to the groom?” the priest asked softly.

“I am.” Gohan stated and handed his daughter over to Jason. Their eyes locked and they tore them away to pay attention to the words.

“We are gathered here today to join these two people in holy matrimony. If there is anyone here that opposes the joining of these two let them speak now or forever hold their peace.” He said in a sweet voice. Pan’s mind went into over drive thinking about what they were about to do. ‘What’s the answer Pan!’ she screamed at herself. Pan was ripped from her thoughts as the wedding went on. His words weren’t even audible to her ears anymore. All she could do was watch him bind her and Jason together. When it came to the vows, and exchanging of the rings it sounded as if she did her part but she couldn’t hear her own words. She looked at Jason smiling at her, his lips moved and she smiled back. They turned to the priest once again and this was the finale! ‘Part three of my marriage about to initiate’ she thought looking at the priest. Finally she heard words but they didn’t belong to anyone here.

‘Pan… what are you doing? Remember your love… your past…he’s your pain but your pleasure.’ A voice echoed through her head. Pan clenched her jaw tight. The priest’s voice rang through her ears and she was partly happy. It wasn’t until she heard Jason say ‘I do’ that she felt nervous again. Suddenly she heard voices again… it was what everyone told her… they told her the truth.

‘He’s not of your blood brat, he is not acceptable to your true standards’

‘…And I assure you nothing has changed’

‘You are going to marry this man really soon, don’t you think he deserves to know the truth…’

‘People can believe something so strongly yet they can’t see the truth past their own desire’

‘…And you will know whether your stupidity is common sense in disguise’

‘Face it Pan, this is forever’

“Do you… Son Pan, take Jason Irving to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, through sickness and in health, through richer or poorer till death do you part?” he asked her. His voice went from sweet to one of severe judgment.

“I-…” she started but didn’t know if she could continue. ‘Pan… this is it… the final part of your marriage. Make a decision now!’ she yelled at herself. Bra and Marron looked at her concerned. ‘This is it’ they thought in unison. Goten frowned… this was the last chapter of the story or the beginning of a whole new book. Everyone leaned in trying to see if she was at least mouthing the words but really couldn’t see since her back was to them.

“Oh would you just say it already I have better things to do.” Vegeta bellowed. Bulma backslapped his arm frowning at him. He hmmph’ed and turned his head from everyone who was looking at him. The tension was back on Jason and Pan who still hasn’t said ‘I do’ Jason took her hand gently tugging her hand getting her to look at him. Pan looked up at him and he nodded his head… as if he understood. She nodded her head and mouthed ‘I’m sorry’ he smiled.

“I’m sorry but I can’t.” she said audible to everyone’s ears. She heard the gasps then the whispering going on behind her but she paid no attention to them. She turned to the man at her side. Pan flipped the veil back and looked at him. She opened her mouth to say something but he put his hand up signaling her to stop.

“I understand Pan. You don’t have to explain,” he said taking her hand again. He stepped up to her and looked her in the eyes, knowing it would be his last. “The last thing I want is to make you unhappy. And the last thing I want to feel is pain because your heart is with someone else.” He said softly. Pan let the tears slip from her eyes and she nodded. He let go of her hands and stepped back. “Go on… I wish you the best Pan.” He said happily. She stepped to him quickly, grabbed the sides of his face with her hands and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

“Thank you.” Was all she said as she stepped down from the alter. But not before tossing her bouquet to Bra. Stopping in the middle of the aisle she took off her shoes and threw them in opposite directions. One of them happened to hit an unsuspecting Vegeta. He turned around and snapped grumbling at her disappearing figure.

“Brat how many things you plan to throw at me.” He yelled fed up with this whole thing. Pan didn’t hear him at all… she picked up the front of her dress and ran out of the chapel and down the steps bare foot. Passer by’s watched as the bride ran out to the sidewalk and flagged down a cab. One stopped and she quickly got in dragging in the rest of her dress.

“Where to ma’am?” her driver asked.

“Capsule Corp and make it fast!” she said looking out the window.

~*~*~*~BACK AT THE CHURCH~*~*~*~

“That was noble of you, do you know that?” Goten asked patting Jason on the shoulder. He was standing on a wall watching his guests leave. He nodded his head and stood straight.

“Yea I guess… I didn’t want her to be unhappy. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself thinking I can only make her feel pain.” He whispered. Goten nodded his head.

“So what are you going to do after this?” he asked curious. Jason took a deep breath and looked up at the ceiling then down into Goten’s face.

“Well I guess I am going to go back to Capsule Corp and get my things then it’s back to North Carolina for me.” He said as matter of fact. Goten nodded his head.

“Come on… I’ll give you a ride.” He said nicely. Jason nodded his head and walked with him his hands in his pockets. ‘I’ll miss you Pan’ he thought to himself sadly.

Bra, Marron and Bulma were talking about this new turn of events.

“I just can’t believe she actually said no. I mean… for a second I thought she was going to go through with it all the way.” Bra said surprised.

“But all the time you knew she was going to deny him.” Marron said to her. Bra nodded her head. Bulma sighed.

“I feel sorry for Jason though. That surely was something when he let her go just like that.” Bulma said as she watched him walk out of the building with Goten. Bra and Marron nodded their head in agreement.

~*~*~*~CAPSULE CORP~*~*~*~

Pan rushed into the house and threw her veil on the couch. She ran up stairs and looked in every room for him. Pan put her hands on her hips and looked in his room again. She looked and somehow missed the white piece of paper that was lying on his bed. Pan picked it up and read it. ‘Maybe he went to the office today’ she thought.

Dear Mom and Dad,
     I have been called up for a job. I will be staying there little over six months. I have packed whatever I need and mom, don’t cry because you couldn’t say bye. Dad, don’t grumble cause you cant beat me up anymore. I am sure someone else will happily take my place. Well… I have to go now, love you all. Oh and thank Bra for me, she should know why.

P.S. Wish Pan the best for me.

Love Trunks.

Pan dropped the letter back on the bed and put her head in her hands. She didn’t cry but she sure did feel like it. Pan turned and stormed out of the room.

“Oh no you don’t Trunks… not this time. I stopped this wedding and I will be damned if you get away from me again.” She said grabbing keys to one of Bulma’s cares and stomping out of the house. She got in the car and dragged her dress in. Starting the car up she drove out of the driveway like a bat out of hell. She sped through the streets of Satan City and on to the highway towards Japan Airport. Pan finally arrived there and got out of the car as quick as she could. She ran out of the parking lot and into the building to the information and ticket booth. She didn’t care if people were staring at her. She only cared about Trunks right now.

“Excuse me… what flight does Trunks Brief have?” she asked quickly. The lady typed in to her computer and looked back up to Pan.

“A Mr. Trunks Briefs flight was the Boeing 747 on British Airways at 3:45pm.” She said monotonously. Pan nodded her head.

“Where to?” she asked hopefully. The lady shook her head.

“That is information I cannot give out ma’am… I am sorry.” She said as matter of fact. Pan quickly turned angry.

“No that is information you have to give to me… I need to find him.” She said hurriedly.

“Mr. Briefs requested that his location was not to be given out.” She said in her professional tone. Pan growled and turned around and walked away. Her hair had come out loose and was now brushing against the back of her neck and rested down to her mid back. She grabbed the bridge of her nose and walked to the window and watched as the planes took off. Looking at the large round clock on the other end of the terminal it was reaching 5:00. Pan turned her head back to the outside. She looked down again and her hair, still curly, covered the sides of her face. ‘What have I done?’ she questioned miserably. She let the tears run down her face again… she screwed up and she knew it. Her hand was on her hip and the other was on her forehead.

“You have got to be the most unique bride I have ever seen.” A voice from behind her commented. Pan’s head snapped up and she suddenly smiled. She knew that voice from anywhere; wiping her eyes quickly she turned around with both her hands on her hips.

“Oh really… care to explain?” she asked smiling. Her face was flushed from her earlier crying but she smiled. She smiled at him. Trunks smiled at her and walked closer.

“Hmm… let’s see? Your missing you’re veil, no bouquet, your hair is half up and down with some clips in it and let’s not forget that your barefoot.” He said smirking pointing to her feet. Pan looked down and chuckled but then sniffed.

“Let’s just say I have no one to impress now.” She said letting her hands fall to the side as she walked up to him.

“Oh… should I ask?” he questioned moving closer as they were now almost pressed against each other. She shook her head and waved her hand in the air.

“Maybe later.” She whispered staring into his eyes. He nodded his head.

“What brings you to the airport?” he asked slyly. She smiled.

“You.” Pan said barely above a whisper. Trunks smiled at her, not smirked but smiled. He swiped some hair from her face then grabbed her chin gently.

“Good.” He said lowering his head down to her and their lips met. Once and for all, their destiny was set with that kiss. Some how… an audience gathered around to watch and they applauded them. Trunks and Pan didn’t pay any attention to them; it was all about them now. The hesitantly broke the kiss and stared deep into each other’s eyes. ‘Yes! Thank you Kami!’ Pan exclaimed. He leaned his head down on hers.

“Am I your final answer?” he asked her smiling. Pan grinned and nodded.

“Yes you are.”

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oH My GoSH!! ::sniff:: This is so sweet! What did ya’ll think? Let me know. I am sure I mad a lot of T&P fans out there happy.

Where do Trunks and Pan go from there? Will Pan ever face Jason again? Since they are finally together there aren’t that many question I can ask anymore huh? Well one more chapter left… the last episode. Stay tuned for the season finale of IJCHM…IFILWY



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